I have n0 idea why i'm s0 easily suffer fr0m em0ti0nal breakd0wns. Even a slightest sh0ut c0mes fr0m him can makes me cry. Perhaps, i'm t00 0blivi0us abt dis life. I d0 and say things which i dun mean m0st 0f d times.. ending up hurtin d 0ther party and myself t00. Each time I ap0l0gise, it seems as if s0rry has l0st it's significant value. But in actual fact, i meant every word i said. I have always tried t0 tell ppl t0 be str0ng but am I d0in d same thin'? They say dat we sh0uldn't give in all d time.. we stand up f0r 0ur rights but will it help to save critical situati0ns? The reas0n I have learnt t0 be giving is 'cos i dun want t0 fall 0ut much further. Maybe it's true when he said dat 's0rry' can save any situati0ns much faster. 0r it is 'c0s 0f the sense 0f eg0 in ppl's mind, dat they usually think they're never in wr0ng? Like Elt0n J0hn's s0ng, 'S0rry seems t0 be the Hardest W0rd'. Well, saying s0rry d0es n0t make y0u smaller but it sh0ws dat y0u have a big heart. 0n the 0ther hand, certain ppl are m0st readily t0 say s0rry even if n0b0dy blames them. H0w th0ughtful.. but have they th0ught dat it will l0se it's meaning s0me day? It's like a habit t0 them. H0wever, it all c0mes back fr0m where i started. Perhaps they mean it. Right n0w, i'm trying t0 be 0ptimistic 'c0s i used t0 be s0 pessimistic till the p0int which it affected my life greatly. I have learnt t0 be patient a l0t n0w 'c0s h0ping t0 make things rite again. Thinkin' again, i still have a l0ng way t0 g0. Few days back, I felt s0 numb and c0nfused till didn't feel like g0in' h0me. I still can't handle em0ti0ns pr0bs dat well yet. I guess.
